Navigating Anxiety with ADHD Medications in a Supportive Partnership

Dear readers, thank you all for your feedback and insights. My apologies if my expression is not entirely clear; English is not my native language. I am currently taking 80mg of Ritalin LA, which is a long-acting version of Ritalin, divided into two doses of 40mg each per day. As a fast metabolizer, I find that a single pill lasts me approximately four hours, so I take them early in the morning and around 1 PM. I live in Hungary, where healthcare options are not as extensive as in other countries. Here are my current circumstances and considerations:

Current Medication and Drug Possession

I have been taking 80mg Ritalin LA daily, splitting it into two 40mg doses. My choice of Ritalin LA is due to its effectiveness in lasting throughout the day, even for a fast metabolizer like myself. The only option available to me is Ritalin; Bupropion didn't make a significant difference in my motivation, mood, or energy levels. Atomoxetine is not an option as I was unable to tolerate even the lowest dose. Both Bupropion and Atomoxetine are not yet available in Hungary.

My decision to hide my medications, as suggested by my cohabitating partner, was made out of respect for the law and to ensure my own safety. In Hungary, it is illegal to dispose of prescriptions in the toilet, and pharmacists can be fined for prescribing these medications too frequently. I can only buy Ritalin after a 30-day period has passed, and my doctor prescribes it every 30 days to avoid penalties. Any tampering with my medications would be easily noticed, as I am closely monitored.

The Supportive Partnership Perspective

My partner and I have been together for seven years. He struggled with a speed addiction for a year and has been sober for 1.5 years. Despite his concerns, I have never experienced an addiction to any substance. This week, I was unwell and did not take my medications for three days, but I did not feel the urge to take them, which reassures me of my ability to manage my condition without dependence.

While my partner raised concerns, I believe he is exaggerating the potential negative effects of the medication. However, it is important to note that taking stimulants while living with someone who has overcome an addiction can be akin to indulging in a flavorful meal while trying to maintain a strict diet. This is a different context, and his concerns are valid from a different perspective. My therapist has encouraged him to seek support for his feelings, as it is not solely my responsibility to manage them.

Balancing Mental Health and Medication

Despite these challenges, the stimulants have a positive impact on my anxiety, allowing me to think clearly and focus better. My partner has observed that my anxiety levels decrease when I take my medication, and this is a significant benefit for us both.

As an added precaution, I take high-quality vitamins and supplements daily, as I understand the potential strain that stimulants can place on my body. My commitment to a healthy lifestyle helps to mitigate any negative effects that the medication might have.

Conclusion

Managing anxiety alongside ADHD medications can be a delicate balance, especially in a supportive and caring partnership. While it is crucial to address any concerns and seek support, the benefits of my medication in terms of my mental clarity and emotional well-being are undeniable. My partner's concerns, although valid, can be addressed through ongoing therapy and open communication. By prioritizing our health and well-being, we can navigate this journey together with greater understanding and support.

Thank you for your empathy and support. Please share your thoughts in the comments below.